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I don't think iv'e blogged about this before; i don't think so anyways, i remember once i had this dream, twice actually. It was about me running into a far distance for a long time, and having this masked person chasing me, i don't know why though, i was just running and running and running..Then i gave up. I got caught by the masked stranger and i woke up. It was more like a nightmare to me than a dream since it was actually quite scary. The feeling of someone watching you, finding you, chasing after you.

 Giving up.
 Getting caught.

This might be a pretty weird dream nightmare but somehow i think it relates to life. Well maybe its just me over-thinking but maybe just maybe, the masked stranger was some obstacle in life i needed to overcome? Maybe a fear? Then i don't get how i'm running away from that obstacle or fear when i'm supposed to face it. In the end i just run..and i can't run forever. Then i give up. Like how i always say i give up on life, i just don't get it. Then another thing. Getting caught in life's obstacles and never getting out.

Never finding an escape.

Now doesn't that seem scary if you think about it another way around? Imagine being locked in a room for ages and you can't get out. Everyday you're just stuck there. No family, no friends. All alone.

alone [uh-lohn]
seperate, apart, or isolated from others.


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