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School? I don't think so

everyone needs these christmas lights on their blog
So Christmas is coming and school is reopening.
I haven't even finished my homework yet. image
Sad to OMG
All i can do now is, in front of my computer, all dem digital pixels excruciatingly stare at me; while i sob. Sob about why i never did my homework earlier and i could have had the whole month to slack not worrying about anything. Then there i am, doing this every time there's a long holiday. I'm VERY sure many people are like that too. I also hate it how every year i promise myself i'm gonna be a good girl, do my homework and get good grades,
control my temper and in the end, i never do. Life is soo hard, sometimes i also wonder if i die, will i still be able to think and dream while i'm dead? Like forever? Getting bored in the dark. Hmm..and what if people are here just to help us survive? Nobody is real; just me. Then when i die; it's also just me.
I have repeated this many many times. Existential crisis is DEPRESSING. Do you have these thoughts too? Do you hate yourself for it? Don't worry. image
Self Loathing
Oh and have you noticed my new music player? I'm not using SCM anymore :D


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