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>.< very very bad news

My recent blogposts have told you that well, i won't be using the computer that much. GOOD NEWS. I finally have my computer back. Well kind mum only gave it to me to do my online survey thingy. Bad news is, i had to uninstall mstar like RIGHT IN FRONT of my mum. Like I said my mum ain't stewwppeeeeed. ;P
SO LIKE 5 MONTHS, $400 ON MSTAR ALL WASTED. My life is like ruined right now. Lol when I uninstalled it my eyes were literally tearing up and my voice was all shaky and I felt like my heart was being shattered. Well I guess that's the hard problems you gotta deal with to be a computer addict :b
Though that was all really saddening to me, i decided on something. And i made up my mind.
I don't want to play anymore. I'm not playing anymore. I've gotta discipline myself. If i want to become a professor in lit then that's what i'm gonna do. Its time for hardcore studying. I need to at least do well in the first half of the year.
Well then, time for another very very bad news. :P
I might not be able to stay in sg anymoredead
Okay you heard that right, that was bc when my mum was renewing passports and all she totally forgot about this thing that she needed to renew and now their like researching and calling all the agency people for help or smth..
I'm seriously worried. I mean this has happenned many times like I had to go back to mlysia once because of some situation there but idk idk. This seems just much much more serious.
If I really have to move to mlysia agn, I hope escie and I do something really really fun and idk BIG BIG DERH. Omg I feel like dieing rn. Though I still get to give back to penang. My hometown ;b, I love penang. I just really don't want to start a new life there anymore. I'm too used to sg d.


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