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A burning desire to be with someone who you find attractive and extremely special. 

 Having crushes are so frustrating, yet so thrilling. Crushes are the reason why my life isn't boring. Am i the only one that honestly have little to no friends to live for? I have really really good friends, but sometimes there's just a group of people that make me feel so odd.

Thats where my crush comes in. Every time i see him, i get so excited. When our eyes lock, its makes me blush on the inside. Its so funny how only one person is able to do that. When he talks to me, i stutter and say dumb things. Some even like "Hey look a square" I swear thats happened once! He's probably the only reason i run as fast as lighting just to get to class early, so i can get a peak of him before we have to change classes.

Falling for him isn't like falling on soft pillows, but more like falling on concrete ground till my nose breaks. Its way harder. The weird part is, i wouldn't mind one bit.
Hell I'd injure myself for him any day.

I'm not the only one right? I bet everyone has had some type of crush they find so hard to let go.
 Tonight, I'll go to bed

His deep dark huge eyes, that just seem to speak to me
His long and lovely eyelashes
His brows, unplucked
His somehow wide nostrils 
His thin lips
His short and cute teeth, shaped slightly like an aligator's 
His sharp jawline, that I'd love to touch
His straight hair glistening in the sunlight

You'd think he was some ugly dude with a mutated face, maybe he does to others im not sure. Still, he's the most annoying, irritating, nice guy I've ever known.

Sadly, he's not mine yet.


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