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Love is just an illusion. It's what brings us together so we can do what mankind is supposed to do, make babies and carry on the generation. Ever wondered what if there was no such thing as love, and everyday we would just go about doing our own things? Just to make us happy? Isn't happiness just an illusion too? The human kind is never fully satisfied with what we have. We'll always be driven to find our own happiness, somewhere down the road, but when we do, we want even more. Sometimes we come across fear, sadness, anger... they're not real too, right?

They seem so real.

I've always thought about all this, it kind of never left my mind. Every time someone is nice to me, angry at me, or offended by what i said, i never really took it seriously. Because its not real!! They could be super nice to me if they wanted, it doesn't affect me in any way. I know they are extremely nice, and i appreciate that, but i don't really care. Were all lonely on the inside. I'm not sure about most people, but I've always enjoyed being on my own, not because i feel happy, or it makes me feel better, but because we were created as lone beings. We aren't "connected" to each other in any way, we just think that we are. We started off alone. Sure, most of us had parents to take care of us, and honestly speaking, they don't have to if they didn't want to right? If they didn't, they would be called irresponsible parents and would be shunned by society. If they did, it might be because of love, which brings me to the first thing i said, that love is just an illusion. Our parents raise us up because they "love" us, because we need to be raised properly so that in the future we are able to go find a mate.

We all strive to find love, love kind of the most important emotion. It's like a string. Were all born with a string, with milestones we are able to achieve by experiencing life. That string extends when we experience more and more, feelings, emotions, and out of the blue, the string might just combine with someone else's string. Now, two are connected. They then aim to reach the starting point of their partner's string. By understanding them, the things they have experienced or felt. 

That string, is life.

I probably never really made any sense.


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