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Shit you should never do unless you're me! -PART 5-

This post might be a teeny bit creepy, but I'm sure its one of them where you're just going to be really... well just see for yourself.

BTW, this actually happened quite recently!
A typical day in school passed, and my math class had to stay back for about an hour after school for an extra class to go through a worksheet. Well, i had this friend of mine that had to stay back around 30 minutes after the remedial to do some kind of re-test for math. He asked me to wait for him, so afterwards we could go eat. I waited for him outside the classroom, just hanging out at the classroom corridors looking like a hobo while everyone walks past staring. I was just there, wearing my yellow hoodie all zipped up, and listening to music. A little more than 15 minutes passed, and well i needed to go to the toilet. 

I'm kind of those pussies that don't dare to go somewhere alone if the lights are off, and i usually on the light switch and just wait for the lights to turn on before i enter. Unfortunately, the toilets in my school didn't have light switches, it was auto and had those sensory thingies that turns the light on when you walk past. I honestly REALLY hated that, because every time i use the toilet, i would have to take small cowardly steps inside the toilet, hoping that it would sense me and turn the damn lights on before i go in. That's what i did, and because it was after school, there was barely anyone around there.

When i entered, the lights immediately turned on, so i was relieved. There was no one in the toilet though, no one in the cubicles either. When i enter the toilet, i usually go straight into the cubicle to do my business. In this case, well, i just had to look into the mirror first. I stared straight at the mirror, and realised there was someone staring back at me. She was singing, or rather humming some kind of song that i recognise. I got really really freaked out, and ran out of the toilet as quick as i could. 
 I couldn't handle it anymore. I just had to pee so badly i felt like i was about to explode! I was super urgent. I could just pee any time.

 Sooo, i decided to go back into that frightening hell of a toilet. I rushed into the first cubicle nearest the the toilet door, and when i was done, i went to wash my hands, and i just had to look into that mirror.   


That person in the mirror was me. This was for-real guys, i don't know why, but sometimes i don't even know if my reflection is actually me. I mean sometimes i have to take a longer look at that "reflection" of mine before i actually realise its me. I was really quick during my previous trip to the horrifying toilet, so i couldn't see it yet. It's weird huh?


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