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Up's and Down's

You know what sucks? Being sick. Before your period, and on your period.

The past school week has been just...i really don't know how to say it man. There's just been many up's and down's, and its getting really tiring. Monday was youth day, so there wasn't any school, so that was okay.

Tuesday was neutral, but i had that tingly bit of excitement because someone I've been missing so much is back. Heehee, you know that feeling when you haven't seen someone you love so long and they finally come back? It's a nice feeling. Makes me all squirmish and happy, lol. Then when you manage to talk to them after so long, its just indescribable.
Bad new was, I came down with a slight fever and sore throat, probably from eating too many oreos, junk food, and sitting in a cold room skyping with a friend all day. It's all worth it though.

Wednesday, siiggghhhhhh... sore throat got even worse, and my fever got worse, subsided, and got worse again. Glad to see a certain someone again, especially when they initiate a conversation without you doing it first <3
Maybe a word for it would be love-sick, literally.

Thursday. This was the best day in the week. This is getting frustrating, I'm trying so hard to tell you guys what made me happy, but i have to hide that person's identity, and i don't want to use a code name. I'll just end up revealing everything. Let's just say a certain person made me really blush-y.
We had this history footprints trip around clementi and my group was super fun. Most of us were close friends, and we had a BLAST, our teacher was really cool too. It was just exploration with a huge group of people. Afterwards, we went back to school to do some kind of reflection shit, then the best part happened.
I don't know how to say it, but you know that feeling when someone thinks you and your crush are a couple, and your crush doesn't deny it. HAH. ITS A FEELING. A TINGLY HAPPY FEELING. eeeee

Fridayyyyy. Supposedly the best day turned out the worst, sort of. My sore throat got super bad and i started sounding like a constipated old man, and i was constantly dizzy. Plus i had CCA on after school, but i didn't feel like attending. I was in a dilemma though, on whether i should attend or not, because we had some things to teach the juniors, and if i didn't attend, my juniors wouldn't know what to do. Since I'm also a patrol leader, i wasn't sure if my patrol second could take over. If i did, well i won't feel well, :P In the end, i decided not to go and give my PS a chance to bond with the juniors.

For some reason i started coughing up a little blood, so i went to the doc, he gave me some meds and i just hoped for the best. I don't want to sound like a constipated old man all my life.

Now, saturday. I'm still sick, and i still had to attend two tuition lessons. Damn. I remember coming across a nice aunty today, she kind of noticed my hoarse voice and i don't know, but she knew i was sick and was like advising me what to do on a fever and stuff. When i got home, i crawled to my bed, turned on the computer, and watched insurgent cuddling my pillows. I also started feeling real guilty as i had to cancel plans with a dearest friend all because i was sick.

Sunday, hmmm I'm not sure, maybe I'll just be watching movies on my bed all day.
Sometimes, a good movie and a comfy bed is all you need when you're all sick, exhausted, or just bored. My life has the tendency to fall apart without all that, you know?


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