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Sleep paralysis

As the year is coming to a close in just less than two months, i decided to cover a topic that I've been facing for most of this year. Sleep paralysis. So this problem I'm facing right now has affected me quite a lot actually. I don't think i would have it last year, or even before that. It just started happening a lot this year.

I remember it starting off as a once every two months thing, but then it started happening about five times a month, then soon it got to three times a week, now its becoming almost five times a night. I can't even sleep without sliding into sleep paralysis consecutively. It's really been affecting my sleep schedule, and most of the times i wake up with a horrible headache. Just a side note, sleep paralysis can sometimes be really scary. Sometimes i wake up feeling really numb from the "nightmare", and try to fall asleep again, but i end up repeating the same cycle of my mind being awake but I'm paralysed. It gets super irritating and scary to the point where i have to stay awake for a while, wash my face, and sleep with my mum.

It's not even lucid dreaming, i can't control shit. I just open my eyes, i know where i am, the way my body is positioned, i just see everything as per normal. But i can't move. I'm literally paralysed. I think i can open and close my eyes though, and lately it's become so frustrating to the point where i just give up fighting. I used to constantly try and move my way out of this "dream", but it never works. It just makes your body feel really numb, and fighting it does not help one bit. The only way i managed to wake up is to just stop whatever I'm doing, close my eyes, and wait for time to pass till i wake up.


Unlike most people who have covered on this topic, no, i have not met any ghosts or demons, at least i don't think so, but there was one time where i woke up seeing a girl sleeping next to me but facing the other side. I'm thinking that was a lucid dream because i thought that girl was me and that i was having an OOB (Out Of Body) experience, so i "flew" my way into her. What happened next was, i could feel someone choking my neck from behind.

Sleep paralysis has been happening so frequently that i think I've gotten used to it a little, i stopped being so scared, because i know what it is and that its just in my sleep, but i gotta admit its really annoying.

The reason i posted this is because i kind of desperately want help. I don't want help on how to wake up from it, i want tips on how to prevent this sort of thing from happening. So if any of you have any tips, please please comment or contact me. Thankss :))

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